I loved high school. I really did. I never had a problem getting out of bed, I never wanted to skip a day. I just wanted to get there. I had friends, not loads, and we had fun. I was happy and upbeat. Then I started college.
College definitely did not agree with me. I withdrew into myself. Stopped answering questions. Shied away from people. I don’t even know why it happened. I just couldn’t relax in the college environment. There were too many people that I didn’t know, and I had lots of trouble trying to make new friends. Luckily, I still had some friends from high school remaining. I spent all my time in the silent section of the library when my friends were busy, and when they weren’t, I wouldn’t go anywhere without them. I didn’t feel safe, and I always felt scared. I didn’t know how to get out of the hump I was in. I had become a wallflower, fading away into the background. Forgotten.
I lost contact with the majority of my high school friends; only speaking to them that I had classes with. What was worse was how I was no longer the smartest in the class, I was just average. My intelligence had always set me apart and given me confidence, now that I didn’t have that I felt lost and struggled to fit in and belong at the college. I stopped taking part in extra curricular activities that I enjoyed when I first started college. I didn’t really understand what was happening to me, and why all of a sudden I had changed and withdrawn.
Now that I have finished college I only speak to one friend on a regular basis, and maybe two others on a non-regular basis. I do find myself being lonely, and I have no idea how to start making new friends. I don’t go out anywhere to even meet any new people, let alone new friends.